An Aussie Intern in Israel – Part One: The Personal Experience

An Aussie Intern in Israel – Part One: The Personal Experience
// Summa Amare

I once thought that I fell for a young man, a love completely against my will and every subjective, objective, emotional thought I had and yet there he was plaguing my mind despite me. The facts are that he certainly has a ridiculous personality, divided between his wilful submission to societal norms caused by a desperate need for approval and his frustrated anxiety to be who he wants to be. In fact, he claims to be a determinist as a way to escape his own will and freedom due to the intensity of his self-doubt and yet plays deceitful games, lies and tricks the people around him to satisfy his ego and covert the misery he feels for being such a coward. His life is an image creation and though he despises such mediocrity, he tames the desire for freedom by creating fictional characters and stealing the experiences from others. This, and finding happiness in other peoples’ misery. I desired nothing more than to see him embrace his freedom as I could sense a purity or goodness within him beyond what I had ever seen before but time and time again, despite every comment made, every lesson thrown in his direction, he always withered back into his shell, hiding himself behind the shadows.

In all the bad he did to me – all of which I knew as I knew what he was – I realised I fell in love with the belief in his potential to break out of this repetitive stupidity, to become honest to himself which is the only way to obtain what genuine morality provides; everlasting peace. But last Christmas, seeing him only worsen I realised to my immediate disappointment that his refusal to better himself was much stronger than I could impress and being profoundly saddened at his failure to a point of making myself seriously sick, to save myself from the heartache I decided to search elsewhere for what I had hoped to find in him.

And I think I found him. His name is Israel.

From the soundless alarm made from the gentle, orange sunrise piercing through the giant tree outside my bedroom window that form shapes on the wall to the random crazy man shouting for no apparent reason on the side of the street. The impolite service, the politics, history, feeling lost in the maze of an unknown language as I stand in shock as people ride hand-made motorised bicycles in the middle of a busy, disorganised road.

The combination of young, perfectly tanned girls wearing short dresses that expose their tattoos to women dressed modestly in long skirts and shirts with a scarf over their heads.

The dilapidated buildings and infrastructure that is nevertheless functional and the sudden silence during shabbat. On one end I see an overweight, bearded man wearing a payos and hat with a gun strapped around his thigh and on the other I see young, attractive men sipping beers in their board shorts. I am lost in the chaos, overwhelmed by the constant honking of the horns, the failure to understand where to go or what bus to catch. And I love every minute of it.

It goes against every rational, subjective, emotional understanding I have of a place to call home, living in Melbourne – the most livable city in the world – and having an attitude of refined simplicity and quality.

Such is the appeal of this country, with the ridiculous personality divided between a strong, almost mad ego and a genuine goodness. There is so much to learn, so much to change for the better and I want to play my part, to flow in the chaotic tide of its beauty and terror even if multiple barriers causes him to reject me, trick me or hurt me. I have fallen in love with the endless possibilities that Israel has to offer.

Desert Queen

At the onset of my Masters degree in Human Rights Law, I was told that there would be opportunities to pursue international internships funded by Monash University and noticed several availabilities in Israel. Though I had yet to apply, something told me that I was going and I could only go if I was offered the funds to do so since financial constraints would prevent me from visiting independently. You could imagine how overwhelmed I felt the moment I received the ‘congratulations’ letter, but certainly not as accomplished and confident the moment I stood on the balcony at my Tel Aviv apartment knowing that throughout October I will be in the most complex, beautiful place in the world. Since completing my studies in Middle Eastern and Central Asian Studies several years back at the Australian National University, I have always wanted to come and experience everything that I had learnt about the Arab/Israeli conflict and about Middle Eastern politics in general, of Islam and Judaism and the legal and social issues – something I shall write more about in Part Two: The Political Experience of this blog post. But my love of history and of biblical history in particular was the source of what really compelled me to this region.

Interestingly, however, I though it would be in Jerusalem that I would find a sense of belonging but – as I had experienced in Rome – it was certainly not what I had anticipated, on the contrary. I unwittingly found a love of the rustic and almost cruel Negev region and also in restricted and abandoned streets of Bethlehem. Perhaps it was simply just a string of bad luck, yet I was hoodwinked on several occasions in Jerusalem, losing a substantial amount of money to a taxi driver who intentionally dropped me off at the wrong place, from staying in a terrible apartment though the images showed it otherwise, to be given incorrect directions from a mini-market employee when all I needed to do was walk less than thirty seconds away from the location, I became confused and a little disgruntled. The attitude to Tel Aviv – where I am primarily based – is a liberal city, left-wing and youthful and yet here I have felt welcomed, the vibe being that of kind solicitation, a warmth and eagerness. When I was in Rome, a similar and overwhelming experience had occurred just the same and I felt a strong desire to leave the city and return back to Tuscany where I felt at home in the hills with its peaceful culture, music, art and the medieval architecture. Perhaps, as I said, it was just bad luck and I will endeavour to try Jerusalem once more in anticipation of a better experience.

It was nevertheless unexpected that traversing the Judaean Desert, from the Dead Sea to Ein Gedi, from Eilat and even to Jordan where experiencing Wadi Rum since watching Laurence of Arabia would have been as appealing as it has to me. Like most adventurers, some find it appealing to climb mountains, others hiking forests or out at sea, for me it would seem that there is a desert appeal, the richness of archeological and historical artefacts and stories, the cruelty and beauty.

Mar Saba Monestary


Staying in Israel until the end of October, I also find myself being a part of the most celebratory month of the year. Though I have rented an apartment near the beach and so locally there appears to be options to buy groceries or visit a cafe despite the public holiday, I still want to get myself involved and learn more about the customs and traditions. At the moment, the celebration of Rosh Hashanah is underway or the Jewish New Year and Jews all over the world traditionally eat apples dipped in honey to promote a sweet new year. I wish for nothing more than the sweetest New Year and being an avid – perhaps way too avid – fruit lover, I spent a portion of my funds on apples, pears, plums, honey and pomegranates for the two-day holiday. Oh, how I love fruit so I thank Rosh Hashanah for the excuse to eat it all! In the Book of Leviticus, Rosh Hashanah or the Feast of the Trumpets is traditionally a way of reflecting over the past year, to be penitent and to ask God for forgiveness for any wrongdoing made in addition to celebrating the beginning of the harvest. Challah bread – which is circular – is also traditionally served to symbolise the cycle of the year. Shanah tovah u’metukah!


Following Rosh Hashanah will be the celebration of Yom Kippur, considered the holiest of holidays for the Jewish community all around the world. Yom Kippur or Day of Atonement require fasting and prayer over the day and night, asking for forgiveness and atoning for any sin or wrongdoing. This is followed by Sukkot or the Feast of the Tabernacles and is a celebration of the exodus through the wilderness as signified in the Book of Leviticus as well as marking the agricultural year from the Book of Exodus. It ends over a period of seven days on Shemini Atzeret and Simchat Torah. To be a part of a country celebrating these festivities, I feel honoured to be present during October.

A Personal Journey of Recovery

I went through the worst year of my life last year. I found myself being bullied and harassed, I lost all my savings and ultimately my dreams, I had a car accident, I was seriously threatened, physically injured and ill with rapid weight loss, amenorrhea and severe angina, twice hospitalised where I nearly died. All this while I was alone. It felt like the whole world hated me and all I really wanted was one person, a friend, to say that I was going to be ok, only it was the contrary. There were days that I spent hours in physical agony from the angina that I never left the house and to avoid the severity of the situation, I would utilise social networking sites as a way to pretend that I was not as incredibly vulnerable, confused or afraid as I was. It was only when the angina suddenly disappeared to the dismay of my doctor and myself that I was able to slowly stand from the distress and work my way out of the sense of emptiness and hurt. Though I permanently injured my left leg and without a car, despite the pain I forced myself to walk and get groceries, to catch two trains to my new job and back. Slowly but surely and now with an income and employment that gave me purpose, I moved into my own unit and took control of my life once more. I started a masters degree and began writing my own blog, making a pact with myself that 2016 will be a New Year that will never repeat what I had experienced previously. Step by step, struggle-by-struggle, I gained the strength and did so with independence, hard work, a strong will and my faith in the loving-kindness of God.

In saying all that, the terrible experiences awakened a part of me that I had long kept hidden. I never realised how much my family had hurt me until the recent events because – being alone for so long – the severity of the experience made me realise that I did not want to be alone anymore, which made me question why I was. After a childhood spent being rejected from my parents and relentlessly told by my siblings that I was ugly and stupid, unawares, I believed it and pushed all men away as I kept myself hidden from the fear of being hurt just the same as I never had ambition professionally since I thought I was never good enough. Though no one would know of my inherent isolation – such as pretending I had been in relationships – year after year was lost in the acceptance that I was less worthy than everyone else. All these experiences has in a cyclic fashion encapsulated everything that I have decidedly become. Though it was incredibly difficult for me, a photo in my swimsuit at Ein Gedi and the Dead Sea was an effort to express in symbolic format that I will no longer believe that I am ugly and that beauty is the confidence to have self-respect, to commit to a life of moral worthiness, to be genuinely kind and to love with all my heart and though I have not yet been in a relationship, I am no longer embarrassed or afraid neither do I nor will I ever believe in other people’ viciousness. I have conquered hate. My passion now lies in children and my philosophy will remain that every child deserves a childhood. My mother, being a victim of severe domestic violence, failed to adequately care and I know that a childhood can only develop correctly with a mother who is of right mind. Thus, by extension, women’s rights is fundamental to the rights of children. Though I myself can never have children, my fierce maternal instincts, genuine sense of love for all of humankind, honour in my person and respect for myself has led me to commit myself to this purpose. I am also learning to appreciate beauty both physically and subjectively.

Which is why my purpose was found on the day I decided to travel into Bethlehem, the West Bank. Encountering the Palestinian/Israeli conflict directly, it was quite overwhelming to hear stories of Palestinian children being shot dead, something that reaches deep into my soul as completely and unequivocally unacceptable. The restrictions particularly with movement and self-determination, the poverty and lack of opportunity will certainly impact on the well-being of mothers. To change the conditions of society, to prevent the growth or maturation of a negative culture, children need to experience love, happiness, freedom. It was in Bethlehem that I met the founder of the organisation Alrowwad For Culture and Arts, a wonderful organisation in the UNRWA managed refugee camp Aida that provides both women and children with hope through creativity and education.

BanksySpraying on the wallWest Bank WallAida CampGraffitiMe with Palestinian Children


Aida Camp is managed by UNRWA and with more than 3000 inhabitants covering a mere 0.070 square kilometres, it is one of many camps in the region that is susceptible to violence being in a vulnerable location and overcrowded. Dr. Abdelfattah Abusrour gave me a plethora of information regarding the work of the organisation and I was so moved by its validity that I have decided to establish Australian Friends of Alrowwad when I get back home to Melbourne as a way of supporting the organisation and the children in the camp. I am apolitical and will ensure that it remains so, my only concern being the rights of women and children despite Israel and Palestine being divided withe a long and intricate history of violence and fear among other delicate issues.

My personal experience with hardship and my current state of subjective peace was only possible when I stopped focusing on the evils of the past but took the necessary steps to develop change for the better. It is unfruitful and unproductive otherwise as all experiences should never be forgotten but it is essential to overcome.

I want to end with a quote that I believe stands at the heart of this personal post of mine.


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“A police officer is all there is in society to keep any concept of order.”

“A police officer is all there is in society to keep any concept of order.”
// Samina’s Forum for police support


Dear blogger friends I am blessed to hear direct stories from real people in real life situations. I am so proud of the fact that great human beings come to my blog and share their inspiring life stories with me. I am posting one such real life story of a New York Police Officer who has been kind enough to share his story with us. I thank him from the bottom of my heart and pray that I keep receiving such inspirational real life stories in future as well. We all need to understand and comprehend what the job of a Police Officer is all about. It is no ordinary job and Police Officers are no ordinary people. We live a secure life and enjoy our freedoms because of some great human beings who serve and protect us. There is no higher calling than that of a Police Officer’s job. Lets hear the heart warming true feelings of a Police Officer, first hand. This is what he wrote to me,

“Thank you very much for this page. I was a New York City Cop and Sergeant, retired after 20 years.The emotional toll, the stress on the family, the stress you put away, never pay attention to. How your adrenaline and heart start beating when the radio crackles of a man with a gun. You respond as always, running to the danger, never thinking about how it is against every human emotion to head that way, to the trouble, but it’s what you do, who you are. I can honestly say, in the last year’s of my career, I was going to back up every other cop that was going, and they were backing me. It has taken a tremendous toll on my body, but especially my mind, there are things I can never unseen. 20 years later, they still come to mind, the place, the smell, who was next to me. A police officer is all there is in society to keep any concept of order. We go to every job you can possibly imagine. Before the ambulance, before social services, we go to child abuse calls, and have to make a decision that will save a child, or destroy a family, mess up, if something happens to the child, you have to answer to the man. And you eternally answer to yourself. Have the child removed, and thrown into a maze of courts, foster care, another broken system with regular people just trying to make the best decisions they can. Finding the elderly abandoned by children or any family, only noticed when the smell coming out of there apartment creeps into the hall and is too much for the neighbors to stand, so they call 911 and we come. We always come. It is a sworn duty I took years ago, when really only a boy, not yet a man. I raised my right hand and swore to my God I would do this. I felt blessed to be a part of this, the front lines of the streets. To stand with men I could never, in my wildest dreams, be as brave or as tough, or as the street counselors these men were. Could take care of any and all possible situations without handcuffs, a degree, or use of a night stick. Handle family disputes where everyone thinks they won, and No one got locked up. Convince a half drunk lunatic that it’s his best interest to go to his brother’s house tonight. Let things at home go until tomorrow, when clearer heads would prevail. And he never called a Sergeant to the scene. It is his job. He handles it where it goes. Smooth, or a full out brawl with the neighborhood. He knows as does everyone else involved, that if he calls for help, there will be cops coming from every direction to his aid. And they would. Not be in a talking mood when they show up. So anyone with any sense got lost. And the fools who wanted to fight the cop or 2 had a world of hurt coming upon them. It was not a job for the meek. They would quickly find positions inside to avoid the street. They had weekends off, and most holidays. The guys on patrol carried the burden, they still do.They always have. I met some of the kindest people I would ever have the wonderful opportunity to know. I saw a cop give a runaway his last 5 bucks to get a sandwich at the bus station waiting for the bus home. He didn’t have money for lunch the next day. Just wasn’t in the budget.We went to work, getting in the next day, he said he wasn’t hungry. I accused him of giving today’s meal money to the runaway the night before. He didn’t say anything, just looked at me, as to say “shut up, it’s none of your business.” I said ,”You did, you gave that girl,who is probably already run away again your meal money.” He just stared at me. I said, “you know, you’re an asshole, so let me buy you dinner tonight.” He began to refuse so I said” hey, kev, I’m buying you dinner tonight, what do you want?.I don’t give a shit if you eat it,but I’m going to buy you dinner. He said,”ok, how about Chinese?” great…It was a crazy job. Nothing else like it in the world. It was points of laughter with the crew, then shear insanity, the next thing you would never believe. Having kitchen appliances thrown off roof tops to crush your skull. Punks spit on the floor as they cross the street in front of your police car, all the while looking right at you. Some of those guys were taught a lesson. Had to keep them from stepping over that line. I think I had to have a talk with a few of them so they could see the folly of their ways. No, it wasn’t pretty, not nice. But it was clear and understood No video in everyone hand then. Just two men setting some preunderstood bounderies that we had both respected. Next time, it didn’t happen,to any cop. Not so politically correct nowadays. The world was different. If I had to do it all over, with the heart ache of a friend dying in the street responding to a robbery to help someone he didn’t know leaving a widow, a 1 and 2 year old children without a father. The hate and vile that people I had sworn to protect would spew at you every chance. Working weekends, holidays, birthdays. It became such a routine that even now, retired for many years, holidays have no meaning, weekend, birthdays, just the same as every other day. My wife asking me to just pretend it’s important, for me. As a damaged ex cop, haunted, suspicious, over-protective. Maybe just a little bit crazy, just a little bit. I would do it again in a heart beat. It, to me, is truly the greatest job in the world. There is nothing else I could have done. I have stood with awesome men and women who showed me the way, how to stay alive, bravery that I could only wish I had. They had done it all. Being part of that, a member of these increadable people, was a gift from God. I still thank Him for the job. There is, I believe, no higher calling. I believe every real street cop has ended up in uniform by divine Intervention. Thank you for letting me be a part of the chosen few, thank you for blessing me with the position of police officer. There is no higher calling.”



©Samina Iqbal. 2016

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